I'll be ranting away in this entry..

GET LOST if you don't like it!!! Like it or not, i would have to let it out here before i end up doing the unthinkable!!!! Anger is all that i'm feeling now!!!!

SHE is REALLY REALLY getting on my nerves!!!

I seriously think that SHE DOES NOT, yes.. DOES NOT DESERVE a wee bit of respect... No amount of things i do would please HER.. Efforts put in, to improve my relationship with her proved REDUNDANT!!!!

R-E-D-U-N-D-A-N-T!!!

I was ranting to this someone, & this someone told me to just don't bother about her, because if someone hates you to the core, no amount of efforts will improve this sticky situation, & that i should just stop wasting my brain juice on someone whose IQ & EQ equates to Z-E-R-O!!!

So, from now on, i will BOTHER NO MORE, feel HURT NO MORE!!! After this entry, i shall just take it as SHE does not exist @ all, & nothing that SHE does, will affect me anymore...

If SHE decides that she would not attend the wedding dinner, so be it... In actual fact, i'll be over the moon if she really do not turn up!!!!

Someone told me, that you, YES YOU, being my better half, saw that i was being more understanding, & EXPECTS me to ALWAYS be understanding, & forgive HER of all the hurts that she has PURPOSELY inflicted on me...

You promised Dad, that you'll take good care of me & protect me...

But now, look.. You choose to snooze when you heard your Mom verbally abusing me... You choose to hang up on me to continue snoozing when i was most vulnerable...

You told me to understand that you needed rest after your surgery.. Fair enough.. So, i made do with the fact that there weren't even a single call/sms that came from you in the last 2 days... I understood you felt weak & needed rest...

So i initiated all the calls & sms-es, to check if you've developed any complications, not only to be hung up on... SHE had to pass all the negative remarks ALOUD & CRYSTAL CLEAR...

B-R-A-V-O is the word that best describes...

I had no one to turn to... I was left there all alone, & i seriously felt like crying!!!

I looked thru my phonebook & dialled someone's number... Although that someone had just gotten off from work, that someone sounded chirpy... So chirpy that, that someone finally lifted me from all the moodiness... :)

You told me you missed me.. Told me you loved me..

Seriously, for the first time ever, i felt disgusted...

If you cannot protect me from HER abuses now, i cannot imagine having to spend the rest of my life with you, because, you're showing now that i'm last on your list..

Remember.. I'm human with feelings too.. If you expect me to forever spare a thought for HER (after each abuse) sorry, i can't, becoz i'm no saint...