Its yet another lazy afternoon...


Just got back from lunch, & thought i shall just randomly update abit...


As the days nears for Cec's departure, my heart gets heavier.. For no apparent reason, i'll feel so lost, all of a sudden, like i can be happily chatting with her this moment, & instantly feel empty deep within the next minute... )=


Frankly, i have no idea why i am feeling so, but i just can't get that damn feeling outta me.. I understand that this is part & parcel of life, but the thing is, the feeling is odd, so odd... I do not feel like crying, but a tinge of sadness lingers, prolly its the uncertainties that lies ahead...

The worries of uncertainties may be uncalled for, because you guys may just tell me to leave, but i doubt anyone will understand the 'trauma' that i'm going through now.... )=

The fact that i'm going to be stuck here till September @ least, so as to be entitled to the bonus, the fact that i've promised Adeline to stay for another 6 months @ least, the fact that i've worked & held on so hard, for the sake of my $1200 bonus payout which will certainly come in handy @ this point of time....

No words can describe wholly, whats running through my mind now..

I can't even comprehend myself...

I think i need time to sort out my thoughts & re-adjust to whatever that lies ahead of me.. As of now, its nothing, but uncertainties...

But... Amongst all the uncertainties, i'll try my best to remain as positive as i can.. Ain't sure if i can do it, but i believe that if i trust in the Lord, He'll sail me through this tough times... (=

Isaiah 40:31:

'But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run & not be weary; & they shall walk & not faint.'

Isaiah 26:4:

'Trust ye in the Lord forever; for in the Lord Jehovah is everlasting strength.'